Sabado, Hulyo 26, 2014

On Youth and Philippine Sovereignty and National Patrimony

Youth and the Philippines’ Sovereignty and National Patrimony
                                                                        Juno Marteen S. Vegas                      

A Speech Delivered on the State of the Youth Address
Finster Auditorium, Ateneo De Davao University
July 26, 2014

To the President of Ateneo de Davao University, Rev. Fr. Joel E. Tabora, SJ,
To the Administration, faculty and staff of this institution,
To our distinguished visitors and guests from various groups and organizations representing different sectors of the society,
Fellow students,
To the hope of our Fatherland, the Youth,
To every privileged young person here in attendance,
And to the millions of our peers and comrades out there, who share the same sentiments with us,
Ladies and Gentlemen:

Progressive greetings of peace and youthful exuberance to one and all!

Gone were the days when the Youth have been silent, even gagged, by the culture of indifference with regards to pressing social issues of today, particularly in the discourse of national sovereignty and patrimony. The contemporary Filipino Youth of today are no longer blinded and unaided by the prevalence of oppressive structures that continually affect the lives of not only the common Filipino populace at large but specially and directly the youth. Our ears have heard enough of the rhetorical non-sense. Our eyes have seen so much of the theatrical stage plays that all try to deceive our consciousness of what reality is by gloriously portraying the Philippine Youth situation.

It’s very clear to in the minds and hearts of the youth that nationalism and patrimony mean serving our own personal interest first and foremost. This is concerting our own efforts, potential and resources for our ultimate benefit. It’s has to be inviolable and non-negotiable. It means valuing the country as our own, and never to allow foreign superpowers to lavishly intervene.

This is not the case under the US-Aquino regime.

We, together with the rest of society have endured for so long. It is quite a shame how the Aquino Administration would self-servingly try to praise itself. But we know for a fact that his performance, particularly in his 4thyear in the presidency was a total failure. Worse, his joyous speeches would seem to undermine the critical scrutinizing capabilities of the Filipino Youth, as if we are dumb and numb to understand.

Now, more than ever, we, the youth as inherently intellectual national patriots, proudly and conclusively assert that the Aquino Administration continually betrays, bastardizes and surrenders the entire Philippines to the whims of the Imperialist U.S. Thus, if today we are faced with uncertainties about to whose interest our government truly serves, then the future of the Youth may have just been sold out by this futile, reactionary government.

The most recent betrayal of the Youth’s future is the signing of the Enhanced Defense Cooperation Agreement last April 28, 2014 between the Department of Foreign Affair Secretary Voltaire Gazmin, representing the Government of the Philippines and Phillip Goldberg of the U.S. Defense representing the United States of America. Amazingly, the signing was timed in the state visit of U.S. President Barack Obama in Manila, Philippines. Otherwise known as the EDCA, the 10-paged agreement envisions the advancement of the US-PH Mutual Defense Treaty along with other treaties in history. It is notable that while the Constitution guarantees it, the Legislative and Judiciary were unable to conduct its checks and balances function for EDCA.

Like an iron bullet packaged in a sweet candy, it may appear as bilaterally beneficial to the contracting parties. However, the youth deems EDCA as a War Magnet, detrimental to the Philippines. We are definitely on the losing end of this Agreement.

It does not a mind like Einstein, nor a brilliant Political Science Major to realize that EDCA is a slap in the face of the Youth. In essence, it effectively implies that the Aquino Administration values more military and defense over education and social services. It breeds a mindset of subservience towards the colonial rule of foreign powers such as the United States. EDCA is a concrete manifestation of national submission to the Imperialist U.S. and its dictates in the internal affairs of our society. Therefore, EDCA grants the U.S. the tight hold of the Youth’s dreams of a better tomorrow.

Let us dwell in the salient points of EDCA and further analyze the evils of this Agreement using the radical lens of a patriotic youth. Subsequently we will be able to prove why it is principally against the youth.

First, before anything else, is the term of existence of the EDCA. It is stipulated that it shall have an initial term of 10 years. However, parties may agree to extend its duration automatically if deemed necessary. In essence, the Agreement therefore, shall live as long as US sees that it can capitalize on the Philippines. Given this scenario, the youth will have to endure the hell of EDCA until forever, probably beyond our lifetimes.

Second, EDCA legitimizes the entry of U.S. Troops in the Philippines. The mere presence of foreign hostile entities could spell disaster within our nation. Increased militarization on country sides and even in urban areas have no less than catastrophic effects. Strengthening military bases and establishment of new ones in Agreed Locations would mean imposing military dominance all across the archipelago. The promise of inter-operability and capacity-building towards modernization of the Armed Forces of the Philippines are with the trade off of compromising the peaceful nights and sound sleeps of the Youth.

Third, EDCA’s thrust of mutuality of benefits is only a dream that we cannot be assured of. The agreement is clearly onerous in the part of the Philippines since we are giving more and receiving less, if not nothing at all in return. The false hopes of maritime security and domain awareness are merely nightmares that the Philippines would want to get out of, if one understands the hidden agenda of the United States. As a strategic ally in the Pacific, U.S. places us into a sand funnel by blatantly capitalizing on the Philippines’ key location as part of its Trans-pacific Pivot and Positioning. Thus, we are merely instruments of the global power play devised by the U.S. The youth analyzes this scheme as a sacrificial act that necessitates a burdensome role at the expense of our National Sovereignty. Therefore, it is not only the current Philippines that we lose in this gamble, but rather it is the future of our Youth that is at stake.

Furthermore, it is to be emphasized how the agreement even glamorizes American soldiers as heroes and liberators. The contemporary youth knows, however, that it is completely false. EDCA warrants unlimited access and flexible positioning of the U.S. forces and subcontractors within Philippine territory. They are even immune against Philippine laws and jurisdiction. The proliferation of numerous Human Rights Violations and the degradation of women dignity in prostitution are subtle reminders of the inhumane tendencies of American soldiers. The youth remembers the case of Nicole, who until now wasn’t served justice when Corporal Daniel Smith was able to leave the country scotch-free. The youth does not forget the thousands of Amboys in Subic and Clark who lived through childhood without a known father. Not to mention the ill effects of chemical wastes and gunpowder residues that endangers the locale’s health, sanitation and well-being. These and many more are evidences of the horrors that the Youth will have to face the moment U.S. troops gain control over our land.

Zooming in deeper in the nitty-gritty’s of the EDCA, it is stipulated that US troops shall operate without rental and similar costs in the Agrees Locations. US forces have the unimpeded access to the Agreed Locations for all matters including the training, transit, support and related activities, prepositioning of equipments, supplies and other materials, usage and maintenance.

Moreover, U.S. are granted exclusive rights to conduct operations that requires water, electricity and other public utilities, with rates no less favorable to the AFP, less charges for taxes and similar fees which are paid for by in the account of the Philippines.  Furthermore, U.S. troops are granted authority to employ uninterrupted radio spectrum to operate its own telecommunication systems, free of charge and costs to the U.S.

Without a doubt, EDCA is a one-sided deal. It is something to be frowned upon, even disowned and is a happily regrettable circumstance in the youth’s perspective.

Fellow youth, if the Aquino government was more than willing to give such benefits to U.S. and its forces and troops, why in the world is he not as generous to our felt needs and interests? He consciously declares his being master in the art of puppetry, as if the powerful U.S. holds all the strings to manipulate the Philippines upfront. Aquino wasn’t just signing for contracts’ sake, but he was signing the death note for the youth. While the American Imperialists was all smiles for EDCA, the youth is desperately grasping for its breath, with tears and lost hopes.

Was Aquino not even aware of how he broke the promising future of the Philippine sovereign nation? Was he not thinking that in every grain of gunpowder shredded in a bullet fired, a peso worth of a Mongol Pencil and elementary textbooks was lost in thin air? Was he not thinking that in every dollar spent for the construction of new state-of-the-art U.S. military base, a two-story classroom to accommodate struggling pupils in Mindanao who otherwise study under the shades of an Acacia tree would have been constructed? Was he not aware that for every multi-million Balikatan exercise, a thousand or so school teachers would have compensated or at least hired?

What the Youth needs now are textbooks, chair, blackboards, school supplies, classrooms, jeepney fares, and baon if not a healthy breakast; the Youth are disgusted with guns, armaments, artillery, weapons, warships, high-powered rifles, and bunkers.

Fellow youth, it is a shame how PNOY is an Atenean, but his concept of being “men and women for others” is that of being a trained dog of the United State of America. EDCA is only one of the few faces of the prevailing colonial and anti-Filipino policies of the current administration in its dreadful display of National Sovereignty.

Nevertheless, even if forgotten and ignored, the fire within every nationalistic youth continues to set ablaze. The strides of the times call to be critical and progressive in redefining the role of the youth as defenders of national sovereignty and patrimony. In his upcoming speech in the 5th State of the Nation Address, expect a sugar-coated version of the real situation. Regardless, the youth of today, completely understands the problem and it knows the solution. The youth knows that he is not only a part of the solution, but rather that he is the solution himself.

In conclusion, if the youth were to finally grade PNOY’s performance like an exam so far, particularly on the issue of national sovereignty based in the criteria of its truest meaning and form, his rating would be a Zero. A resounding Zero.

            Yes, Ladies and gentlemen and my fellow youth, Zero. And that’s an understatement.

Miyerkules, Enero 16, 2013

2012 Framework Agreement on the Bangsamoro and its ECONOMIC EFFECTS

The Framework Agreement calls for the creation of an autonomous political entity named Bangsamoro. The full text of the agreement is shown below:

  Open Briefing analysis

 The recently signed preliminary peace agreement between the Philippine government and the Muslim separatist group the Moro Islamic Liberation Front (MILF) is a welcome development for the Southern Philippines, which has been ensnared in a violent conflict that has claimed more than 120,000 lives over the last 40 years. Already some commentators are suggesting that the Framework Agreement is a model for that could be adopted by other Southeast Asian countries, such as Thailand and Burma, who have ongoing security challenges associated with ethnic Muslim insurgencies and separatist movements. The domestic business community and regional neighbours are heralding the agreement as an opportunity for economic development and investment in the region’s rich natural resources and agricultural potential. Addressing insecurity and encouraging investment is perceived as an antidote to the endemic poverty in the region. The Framework Agreement is more than a simple ceasefire and disarmament agreement. The agreement spans a broad spectrum of judicial, government, security and financial management issues, and includes specific measures outlining the necessary institutional and governance structures required for the new autonomous region of Bangsamoro. Without detracting from the positive expressions for peace, graduated disarmament, disbandment of private armies and the normalisation of human security, the agreement is very much a road map that has avoided addressing the most contentious sticking points. To a degree, creating a transition process spread out over a number of years to establish key institutions, deliver security and reconcile deep seated opposition and confrontation makes sense for two key reasons. Firstly, the creation of the appearance of peace and security will help Manila attract foreign investment into Mindanao for increased agricultural production, infrastructure development and extractive industries exploration and production. Confronting the core bones of contention in an environment of entrenched poverty and factional conflict with no economic leverage or incentive may end the peace process before it even gets started. Breaking from the existing regional economic stagnation may, instead, provide President Benigno Aquino III’s administration with some leverage with which to encourage a new autonomous government to actively manage potential political instability. Secondly, Aquino's broader peace strategy of converging multiple objectivities to stabilise Mindanao had to balance a variety of competing interests. Intra-insurgency factionalism, local clan competition and provincial rivalry made Aquino's convergence strategy ambitious and challenging. The result is that the Framework Agreement defers many of the most contentious elements of securing a new governance framework for Mindanao and rightly hands determination of inclusion in Bangsamoro to local plebiscite. This approach is a product of earlier peace agreement negotiations, such as the 1996 peace agreement with the Moro National Liberation Front, which were overturned by courts, derailed or left unfulfilled. Reports suggest that both the MILF negotiators and the Aquino administration were mindful of the past failures. A central issue still to be resolved is the extent to which a central Mindanao authority will reduce the administrative authority of the provincial governors of Basilan, Sulu and Tawi-Tawi or disrupt existing relations between Manila and the archipelagic provinces. In relation to this, the Framework Agreement states: "The privileges already enjoyed by the local government units under existing laws shall not be diminished unless otherwise altered, modified or reformed for good governance." At present these governors, and their provincial government patronage networks, have not been affected by the existing Autonomous Region of Muslim Mindanao (ARMM), which has had limited political and fiscal influence over local government units. The Framework Agreement essentially bets both ways: it assuages concerns of a centralised regional authority taking greater administrative control of federal transfers, while at the same time allowing existing laws and privileges to be varied in the name of “good governance.” At some point, this will need to be addressed and if provincial interests start to harmonise with competition between insurgent groups there is a potential risk of the peace process being derailed. Equally challenging will be the issues of civilian policing and any transition of MILF members into a local police force. The jurisdiction of Sharia courts may also be problematic, as it may be difficult for Aquino's administration to intervene in judicial processes that are questioning or assessing the limits of Sharia jurisdiction and precedent. There is no guarantee the Philippine judicial system will refrain from such questioning or challenging the precedent and authority of these courts. Above all, the imperatives of incremental transition and change may be problematic considering the importance of Aquino’s personal political commitment to a peace process and the reality of political term expiring in 2016. There is always the risk that if a transition period of establishing the institutional and political foundations for Bangsamoro is not completed within Aquino’s term a new administration may not follow through with the process. Importantly, these limitations seem to be recognised by both parties: with the Philippines government and MILF representatives emphasising the Framework Agreement is a first step and a roadmap. This measured optimism, underscored by the caution publicly expressed by Aquino, reflects the need to temper expectations and acknowledges particular forces that could easily unravel the plans for peace. Source:

  Economic Analysis...

 Despite the increasing contradiction, the Framework Agreement on the Bangsamoro should be pushed through because it is consultative and inclusive in nature in the sense that all stakeholders involved are considered, it has reasonable assurance of greater acceptability among the affected constituents, and most of all. it empowers the Moro People in Southern Philippines to the right to self-determination and self-governance through giving them the chance to the pursuit of lasting peace which ultimately leads to economic, social and political development... Here are my arguments on the pro side..

  I)Inclusivity among Stakeholders

 With regards to the territorial jurisdiction of the Bangsamoro, there would be no automatic inclusion to the Bangsamoro; the initiative of to be included would still be coming from the People themselves, as manifested by the need of a resolution from the LGU or a petition of at least 10% of the voting population. In addition to this, the possible inclusion of other adjacent area so long as there is a petition of at least ten percent (10%) of the residents makes the argument of inclusivity of stakeholders even stronger. But ultimately, a plebiscite will decide the final inclusion of an area to the Bangsamoro territory, thereby ensuring democracy. The fact that inclusion of a municipality, province or city would be rooted directly from the people would ENTAIL ECONOMIC DEVELOPMENT.

 3. There shall be created a Transition Commission through an Executive Order and supported by Congressional Resolutions 4. The functions of the Transition Commission are as follows: c. To coordinate whenever necessary development programs in Bangsamoro communities in conjunction with the MILF Bangsamoro Development Agency (BDA), the Bangsamoro Leadership and Management Institute (BLMI) and other agencies. 5. The Transition Commission shall be composed of fifteen (15) members all of whom are Bangsamoro. Seven (7) members shall be selected by the GPH and eight (8) members, including the Chairman, shall be selected by the MILF. 
(Framework Agreement on the Bangsamoro, 2012 p.7)

 In developing the most powerful argument in favor for the realization of the Bangsamoro Framework Agreement, this particular section taken from the Joint GPH-MILF Draft itself highlights the fact that the agreement is not yet finished and through its comprehensive process of completion, all stakeholders will be consulted. The parties who will have contributed to the agreement will not be only the original parties which are the Government of the Republic of the Philippines (GPH) and Moro-Islamic Liberation Front (MILF) would further be increase. The provision establishing the Transition Commission created a chance for all other stakeholders to be included in the discussion thereby making them involved in the agreement. In fact, the function of the Transition Commission to coordinate with various organizations among others like the BDA and the BLMI enable the perfected agreement to be consultative and inclusive. Furthermore, the composition of the Transition Commission ensures that people included would be well-representatives of the greater number of the Bangsamoro.


 5. The Parties recognize Bangsamoro identity. Those who at the time of conquest and colonization were considered native or original inhabitants of Mindanao and the Sulu archipelago and its adjacent islands including Palawan, and their descendants whether of mixed or of full blood shall have the right to identify themselves as Bangsamoro by ascription or self-ascription. Spouses and their descendants are classified as Bangsamoro. The freedom of choice of other Indigenous peoples shall be respected. 

The ultimate decision resides to the constituents, the Bangsamoro themselves, thereby assuring the concept of inclusivity by choice of all stakeholders. The provision regarding the process of being identified as Bangsamoro (natural identity as distinguished to the political entity) which is through ascription (by operations of law) or self-ascription (extrajudicial; personal choice) created an avenue for an autonomous choice by the People to identify himself/herself as Bangsamoro. Clearly, these excerpts taken from the Joint GPH-MILF Draft proves that the ultimate decision resides to the constituents, the Bangsamoro themselves, thereby assuring the concept of inclusivity by choice of all stakeholders. The provision regarding the process of being identified as Bangsamoro (natural identity as distinguished to the political entity) which is through ascription (by operations of law) or self-ascription (extrajudicial; personal choice) created an avenue for an autonomous choice by the People to identify himself/herself as Bangsamoro.(Framework Agreement on the Bangsamoro, 2012 p.2)

  II. TERRITORY 1. The core territory of the Bangsamoro shall be composed of: (d) all other contiguous areas where there is a resolution of the the local government unit or a petition of at least ten percent(10%) of the qualified voters in the area asking for their inclusion at least two months prior to the conduct of the ratification of the Bangsamoro Basic Law… 3. Areas which are contiguous and outside the core territory where there are substantial populations of the Bangsamoro may opt anytime to be part of the territory upon petition of atleast ten percent (10%) of the residents and approved by a majority of qualified voters in a plebiscite.(Framework Agreement on the Bangsamoro, 2012 p.5)

 With regards to the territorial jurisdiction of the Bangsamoro, there would be no automatic inclusion to the Bangsamoro; the initiative of to be included would still be coming from the People themselves, as manifested by the need of a resolution from the LGU or a petition of at least 10% of the voting population. In addition to this, the possible inclusion of other adjacent area so long as there is a petition of at least ten percent (10%) of the residents makes the argument of inclusivity of stakeholders even stronger. But ultimately, a plebiscite will decide the final inclusion of an area to the Bangsamoro territory, thereby ensuring democracy

  The fact that all possible stakeholders are included in the creation process would foster economic growth by ensuring that their interest are upheld because through the process of creating the agreement, there is an avenue for their claims to be accommodated as they bring they claims on the table. Considering that they are also economic players, the parties would naturally levy their claims, and given that, surely their economic interests will be considered thereby enabling the invisible hand to work.. III) B. Reasonable Assurance of Greater Acceptability among Constituents

  VI) BASIC RIGHTS 1. In addition to Basic rights already enjoyed, the following rights of all citizens residing in the Bangsamoro bind the legislature, executive and judiciary as directly enforceable law and are guaranteed: (Framework Agreement on the Bangsamoro, 2012 p.6)

 Perhaps the most important lines with regards to rights of the Bangsamoro would be the first seven words, “In addition to Basic rights already enjoyed,”. This means that in no way are the Bangsamoro people deprived of their current rights to life, liberty and property, etc. Given this fact, it is safe to conclude that the Framework Agreement would be reasonably acceptable for the People in the very least with regards to Basic Rights. In furtherance of our argument with the FAB’s agreement, this material would be very useful in explaining that one of the primary reasons for the warm acceptance of the people would be because their Basic Rights are not only sustained, but in fact updated to be more responsive and comprehensive.

  VIII. NORMALIZATION 1. The Parties agree that normalization is vital to the peace process. It is through normalization that communities can return to conditions where they can achieve their desired quality of life which includes the pursuit of sustainable livelihoods and political participation within a peaceful deliberative society. 2. The aim of normalization is to ensure human security in the Bangsamoro. Normalization helps build a society that is committed to basic human rights, where individuals are free from fear of violence or crime and where long-held traditions and value continue to be honored. 5. The MILF shall undertake a graduated program for decommissioning of its forces so that they put beyond use. 10. The Parties agree to intensify development efforts for rehabilitation, reconstruction and development of the Bangsamoro, and institute programs to address the need of MILF combatants, internally displaced persons, and poverty-stricken communities 12. The Parties agree to work out a program for transitional justice to address the legitimate grievances of the Bangsamoro people, correct historical injustices and address human rights violations.
(Framework Agreement on the Bangsamoro, 2012 p.8-10)

 Since the back story of the Framework Agreement really is the search for peace, the defining factor that would make the stakeholders accept this is because, at last here comes a concrete action to achieve that goal. Pointing the idea from this material would bolster out argument about the FAB’s acceptability. As stated, normalization is the process to stabilizing the situation into one that is conducive and facilitative of peace, progress and development. It’s important to emphasize the stipulation of laying-off of arms by the MILF which clearly is likeable to one and all. Moreover, parts of normalization are efforts to intensify development to address the need of the greater number of people and the consideration of the cry for justice of the Bangsamoro. This, among others, as interpreted in this material would contribute to the strength of our argument.

Statements of Judgments

 Upon the rise of the issue of the FAB was raised, people from different walks of life namely political and religious leaders, the Moro People- constituents, and the Government of Republic of Philippines, would definitely ensure an ECONOMIC BOOM since at the first instance they were already POSITIVE of the CHANGE... The moment these key persons express their affirmation for the FAB give assurance that it is indeed a great chance for the furthurance of the ECONOMIC AGENDAS necessary for the improvement of the Economic Situation. COnclusion: Indeed, people that are basically economic players are given a golden chance to make Economic Agendas to be considered. Surely, the implementation of the FAB will create a definite oppurtunity for peace, wherein once and for all lasting peace would be given a clear plausible chance, it will lead the way to the promotion of ECONOMIC GROWTH in terms of INVESTMENTS that will be Rushing in, Increased COnfidence on the the Business Situation and Stabilization of Economic Market COnditions. Once and for all, an answer to the problems existing will be given... An answer that will finally create a remarkable stamp on the lifelong search of the MORO PEOPLE on peace... AND I personally believe that peace entails ECONOMIC GROWTH!

Linggo, Mayo 13, 2012

Am I?

Am I to live?  Life that’s full.
Am I to breathe?  Air ever sweet.
Am I to see?  World that’s free.
Am I to touch?  Your wonder’s lush.
Am I to hear?  Sounds of the unspoken.

Am I to fight? Against friends turned foes.
Am I to eat?  Deserved guilty pleasures.
Am I to laugh? While others weep.
Am I to speak? Words of the meek.
Am I to think? Ideas are bleak.

Am I to learn?  Reasons of existence
Am I to die? Youth only sets forth.
Am I to end? Not now that I’m on my lead
Am I to love? If in loving I was hurt.
Am I to hurt? Cause in hurting I’ve found love.

Am I to pray? If yes, to whom?
Am I to succumb?  The system is in ruins.
Am I to change? Never was it constant.
Am I to lie? I was built in false honesty.
Am I to transcend? Beyond truth and reality.

Am I to prosper? Thing will get better.
Am I to fail? So what if I fail?
Am I to excel? Where else will I go?
Am I to succeed? Till when will I be achieved?
Am I enough? Will I ever be?

Am I?

Biyernes, Abril 13, 2012


`Yan ung lalaki na pinapainlab yung babae tapos, iiwanan din sa ere.

`Yan na din ang deskripsyon sa akin ng isang kaibigang babae...(matapos ang nangyari). Nakakabigla. Di ako makapaniwala. Kilala ko ang sarili ko at alam kong hindi ako pa-fall. Minsan lang ako magmahal pero tapat at dalisay. Ngunit nakakapagpabagabag sa aking isipan ang mga sinabi niya. Napa-reflect ako ng hindi oras. Sandaling nanahimik at tinanong ang sarili, "Pa-Fall ba talaga ako"?

Hmmmmmm... Sadly the answer is "YES". Tama siya... Noon hindi, pero ngayon marahil, I became one. Unconsciouly, I turned into this guy who extends extra-friendliness to gals, making the gals fall, but with no real intentions of having committed relationship. Self-serving na kung self-serving. Pakapalan nalang ng mukha, pero talagang ganun ang mga nangyari sa aking recent affairs. Ngayon ko lang din napagtanto na suddenly, pa-fall na nga ako.

Mali.Mali ito. Ibig sabihin nito, paasa na rin ako. Pag paasa ako, wala akong isang salita. Pag walang isang salita ang tao, walang prinsipyo. Ayaw ko naman maging ganito. Sino ba namang matinong lalaki ang may gusto? Oo, playboy ako..Pero dati, once na may naging karelasyon ako, seryoso naman ako. Hindi ko kino-consider na relasyon yung mga hindi ko mahal pero naging kami. "Fling-fling yung tawag ko dun. Tsaka pinagsasabay ko man, totoo namang mahalaga silang dalawa(or 3):]

Tila yata nag-iba ang ihip ng hangin nitong mga nakaraang panahon. Ang buhay pag-ibig ko nitong mga huling taon ko, lalo na ngayong kolehiyo ay salungat sa aking mga paninindigan pagdating sa pakikitungo sa mga espesyal na tao. Para bang umikot ng 360 degrees ang mga bagay-bagay at nawalan ng sigla at romansa ang aking puso.

ZERO. Numero ng lovelife ko. Hindi naman ganito dati. Karma siguro. Matagal-tagal na rin akong nakaramdam ng lehitimong kilig. Tagtuyot. At hindi maiiwasang maghanap ang puso. May mangilan-ngilan din akong nakikita paminsan-minsan sa kung saan. Mga babaeng karapat-dapat namang ibigin. Maganda. Sexy. Matatalino. Natitipuhan ko naman. Gusto kung gusto pero hindi ko makuhang mahalin gamit ang totoong depinisyon ng pagmamahal. 

Kaya sa mga panahong hinog na ang pagsasama at umaasa na sila, saka naman ako bibitaw at sila'y maiiwan. Ito ang nakikita kong dahilan ng aking transpormasyon bilang isang lalaking pa-fall. Mababaw lamang ang rason na ito ngunit hindi sapat na paliwanag kung bakit nagiging ganito ako lately.

Ang totoo nito, NAKATALI ako sa aking NAKARAANG PAG-IBIG. Akala ko nakapagmove-on na ako pero ang totoo'y hindi pa pala. Hindi ko naproseso sa sarili ko ang aming paghihiwalay, na kami ay hindi talaga para sa isa't isa, at ang katotohanang kahit anong gawin ko ay hindi na kami magkakabalikan pa. Napako ako sa masayang pangako ng "Forever". Umaasa pala akong maipipilit pa kahit alam kong wala na. Ako kasi yung tipo ng tao na ayaw ipakitang nasasaktan at laging ipinapakita sa lahat na ako'y matatag at hindi natitinag. Siya lang kasi ang pinakaminahal ko sa lahat ng naging ex's ko. OA lang. Sa mga panahon, marami akong babaeng tinaggihan at pinaasa, ay siya parin pala ang hinahanap ko. Tinikis kong lahat para sa maling babae, maling pagkakataon at maling panahon. 

 Nagkamali lang ako sa labis na pagmamahal sa kanya na hanggang sa ngayon, takot akong umibig ng iba. Nalimutan ng puso ko na sandamakmak na babae sa mundo ang naghihintay sa akin na maari kong mahalin at muling magpasaya sa akin. Ang epekto nito sa akin ay negatibo na siya naman ngayong nagiging tunay na dahilan ng aking pagiging pa-fall.  Hindi ko magawang pumasok sa panibagong relasyon kasi siya parin ang pala hinahanap ko. Ang resulta ngayon sa akin sanang iibigin ay ang kalungkutan ng isang iniwanan. 

Masakit na katotohanang nagaganap sa aking pagkatao ngayon. Haha. I bet my alter ego is laughing the hell out of me right now. The irony of things stabs me right at my heart. The one who is suppose to be the strongest guy alive now cries over a long lost love and desperately seeks for redemption. Maybe it's just fate, maybe its just me. It's not that I'm a heart breaker, it's just that somebody broke my heart first...

Dapat ko itong paglabanan at nang sa gano'y maging mas mabuting tao ako sa emosyonal na aspeto ng aking buhay Hangga't hindi ko natutunan tanggapin ang mga bagay-bagay ukol sa pag-ibig, na hindi lahat ng mahal ko'y mamahalin ka din, hindi ako magiging mas buong taong nagmamahal.

 I HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO LOVE MYSELF MORE. I DESERVE TO LOVE and TO BE LOVED. I still believe that someone was prepared by God for me and exclusively for me. Now I fear not to love the way I'm capable of loving truly and genuinely with all my heart free of past hurts and failures.

Sa libu-libong taong sa mundo, ang tibok nitong puso ko'y may naghihintay na katugon. 

Spread the love...

PS: Pero, eskwela anay ko. :]

Hope the EX's and near EX's 
and future love affairs read this and understand 
my part,especially you  SMM...

Lunes, Abril 9, 2012


San Vicente Ferrer

Dinarayo ng mga debotong Lebakenio  ang Simbahan ng Brgy. Purikay tuwing sasapit ang Abri upang makiselebra ng kapistahan ni San Vicente Ferrer. Bukod sa Banal na Misa at sa masasarap na pagkain sa mga bahay-bahay  ay pinakaaabangan ang panata ng taunang isinasagawa- ang PATAPAK.

Pagkatapos ng Misa ay  pumipila ang mga namamanata sa harap ng mga Ministro upang “magpatapak”. Hawak-hawak ng Pari at mga Kaabag ang mga Santos na Vicente Ferrer.  Isa-isang ipinapatong ang mga Santos sa ulo ng mga tao na animo’y tinatapakan ni San Vicente Ferrer ang deboto. May mga dala din ang ilang mga kagamitang “pinatatapakan” din tulad ng mga damit, libro, atbp.

Dagsa ng taong nagpapatapak kay San Vicente Ferrer
Naggitgitan sa dami ang tao at kapansin-pansin ang kagustuhang mauna sa pila upang unang makapagpatapak. Titik ang sikat ng araw ngunit hindi ito alintana ng mananampalatayang matiyagang nakapila. Manaka-naka lamang ang may lilim ng mga punong kahoy kung saan may mangilan-ngilan ding hinihintay munang humupa ang dagsa ng tao. Maayos ang usad ng pila kahit hindi organisado ang mga linya. Agad kasing umaalis yaong mga tapos na upang bigyang daan ang mga nasa likurang hindi pa nakapagpatapak.

Pangalan ng Simbahan sa Brgy. Purikay

Samu’t saring mga nilikha ng Diyos ang pumaparoon taun-taon. Bata, matanda, binata o dalaga, magkakapamilya at magkakaibigan, mayaman at nagdaralita, mga angat sa lipunan at yaong ordinaryong mamamayan, ay nagtipon-tipon upang makiisa sa pagdiriwang ito kasama ang mga kapwa Lebakenio. May nananalangin ng kasaganahan, paggaling ng sakit, kapatawaran ng kasalanan, pasasalamat, petisyon-lahat para sa pagsamba sa Kanyang dakilang pangalan.

Kung bakit ganito ang pananampalataya ng mga kababayan natin kay San Vicente Ferrer ay hindi ko maipapaliwanag. Ngunit sa eksperyensya at obserbasyon, hindi rin maipagkakaila ang mabuting dulot nito sa buhay at pakikipagrelasyon sa kapwa tao.

Mommy Jean experiencing healing with her Patapak

Kung susuriin, simbolo ng pagpapakumbaba ang pagpapatak. Ipinapaalala sa lahat ng may mas mataas sa atin, na Siyang dapat kilalanin, paniwalaan at sambahin. Habang nakayuko at nagpapatapak, inaangkin ng deboto ang kanyang mga kalakasan, kahinaan, at buong niyang pagkatao at inaalay itong lahat sa Poong Maykapal.

Sa ulo din ipinapatong ang Santo at hindi sa anumang  bahagi ng katawan, sapagkat sa ulo ang kontrol pag-iisip at kilos ng tao. Matatandaang may ang Santong si Vicente Ferrer ay may hawak ng libro bilang sa kaliwa niyang kamay na nagpapatunay na siya ay matalino at marapat ding panalanginan ng mga nais magkamit ng karunungan at mabuting asal.

Mainam na ating mapag-alaman bilang Lebakenio ang mga ating mga tradisyon at kulturang panrelihiyon. Tanda ito ng ating pagkamakabayan na siyang magbibigay sa atin ng natatanging pagkakakilanlan bilang isang totoong Lebakenio. Marapat din na bigyan natin ng akmang pagpapahalaga ang ating mga panata’t debosyon para na rin sa ating sariling kapakinabangan at gayonrin, upang mas lalo pang mapayabong ang ating mga pinakaiingatang paniniwala at tradisyon nang sa ganon manatiling buhay ang panatang ito ng “Patapak” hanggang sa mga susunod na henerasyon.

Kung Lebakenio ka, kadto sa Purikay kag magpatapak ka…:D  

Sa labasab ng Simbahan habang nagmimisa, nagpapasilong sa isang parachute tent at pumamapilanlang ang init. Makulay din ang mga buntings. Kanya-kanya naman ang mga tao sa pagdal ng payong at panyo pampawi ng init,,

Sabado, Abril 7, 2012

Beyond Paper...

“We think that we shall never see…
 A Mindanao as peaceful as it can be…
A place where Chirstians, Muslims and Lumads live together in harmony…
Against what others say as an Impossibilty…
Lets join hands together in unity..
Sign the Peace Agreement!”

Flooding highways in most parts of Mindanao especially in areas of North and South Cotabato, Maguindanao, and Sultan Kudarat these sign boards, more than encouraging me to join in the peace process, annoy my travelling experience.
In addition to these Plagiarism of the Poem   “A Tree” by Hellen Keller, more intriguing road signage would post questions then suggest answers as follows..

“The worst problem?     War
The Basic Reason?           Misunderstanding
Our Enemy? Ourselves
The Ultimate Solution? PEACE

I recognize the efforts but I think this is all absurd. Peace is the most overused word I know. I grew tired of hearing promises of achieving lasting peace. I am a true-blooded Mindanaoan and just like many of my fellows, my hopes of attaining genuine harmony slowly shatters. It been years of struggle and dialogue way back from our ancestral fathers up to today’s educated people. But what has changed?
The elites who are nominal advocates of peace are in fact the perpetuators of war and unrest. You can’t talk peace and have a gun. If peace would be conceived like this as maintaining the status quo, then what they have been doing is correct. If peace is viewed on the limelight of superiority, control and dominance, then indeed Mindanao is peaceful. If the people will continually be blinded by this peace only the ruling few benefits, what good could it bring to present Mindanao? More importantly, how vague will our future be?
A written black-and-white agreement signed by the Government and the other benevolent party is no more than a piece of paper.  . It has been proven in past MOA’s that signification violations, more likely than not, will be committed. This current one, if indeed will be signed by hook or by crook, is the same amongst others-ineffective, futile, useless. It is all for fake formality. It’s an image-enhancer for the Government to project a well -performing administration. Clearly, this is another manifestation of a fascist regime of the few ruling elites.

Peace goes beyond writings and pens. It not a one-time deal and then boom! It happens in a blink of an eye. It is not instant, not quick, not short-lived. Neither is it organized, nor planned. It can never be negotiated, or arranged between only two people. It’s not an idea. In fact, it is only a dream. Unfortunately, dreams may or may not come true--- oftentimes not.

Peace is a process. It’s a constant struggle of living in harmony. It’s a series of small patriotic efforts gathered together to form a large-scale positive effect.  It happens naturally without willful enforcement. It resides in every people’s heart which emanate from his intellect and is reflected in his deeds. It is collaborative in substance. It is reality which is unrealizable.

We exert too much effort in reaching the so called PEACE, yet what we don’t know is that it is not something to be achieved but something already given. It’s a matter of actualization and experiencing the joys with the hardships that come with it.
It may sound hopeless but I still envision of a Mindanao where peace is actualized, is a reality and is for all. I dream to see its people enjoying the complete package that goes with the God-given peace. Most of all, I pray that we as Mindanaoans will learn to integrate peace per se in our day to day existence a primary peacemakers and not be limited on a white glossy material used for writing.
Peace beyond Paper..

Miyerkules, Marso 28, 2012


'Di niya na daw mabilang kung ilang beses siyang pumapasok sa paaralan na walang laman ang sikmura. Maswerte na kung may saging siyang baon. Naranasan niya ng kumain ng asin at toyo para lang makapag-aral.

---Mga nakakapanlumong mga katagang namutawi sa bibig ng isang CLASS VALEDICTORIAN. Oo, sa kanyang Talumpating Pasasalamat, nangibabaw ang pagpapahayag nga katotohanang mahirap mag-aral lalo na't mahirap ka. Di na ako naluha. Paano pa ko iiyak, eh ang batang may Unang Karalangan ay humahagulgol na sa podium. 

Representante ang magaling kong Tatay ng nagiging magaling naming Mayor. Nagkasabay-sabay ang mga Commencement Exercises kaya't sa mga liblib na lugar ay si Dad ang pinapadala. Sumama syempre ang mas magaling niyang anak--tigahawak ng Program, tigabili ng Mineral Water at tigakain ng mga Meryendang kay sarap(Dudol, Bihon, Manok na Piaparan?etc...Muslim Area Kasi). Alas Otso E Media palang ay nandun na kami sa pinakamalayong barangay ng Bayan sa kapatagan --Datu Karon. Naghihintay na pala ang mga tao-mga magulang, magsisipagtapos, mga guro. Pagkababa na pagkababa sa Pajero, sinimulan na Program. Sinabitan ng Garland sa leeg si Dad. Ako man ay nagsabitan din..

Ang taas ng tingin ko sa sarili ko dahil nakapag-aral ako sa Siyudad... Ateneo pa. Sosyal. Kumpleto ako sa mga kinakailangan ko. Pagkain, allowance, Tirahan, atbp. Sagana naman akong maituturing pero inaabot ako minsan ng pagiging reklamador. Naghahanap ng mas marami, minsan sobra na sa kailangan. Napakaswerte ko pala kung ikokompara sa kanila. Isang pampamulat-mata ang karanasan ko ngayong araw na tunay ngang ang Edukasyon ay Dapat para sa lahat, hindi nga lang lahat may pagkakataong makamit ito. Mahal ako ng Diyos at nakapag-Kolehiyo ako. Eh, sila? Pagkatapos nitong Graudation Song, makakapagpatuloy pa kaya sila kahit Highschool man lang? 

Nakakatuwa ding isipin kung paanong pinagbigyang-diin ng mga Guro't Panauhing Pandangal ng TRAN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL at DATU KARON ELEMENTARY SCHOOL ang kahalagahan ng aktibong partisipasyon ng mga MAGULANG, (NANAY AT TATAY) sa mga gawaing pampaaralan. May dula-dulaan ang mga nasa mababang baitang na pasimpleng nagpapatama sa mga Magulang lalo na ang PTA(Parents Teacher's Association). Hindi na raw umaattend sa mga pagpupulong sapagkat puro mga School Fees lang din naman ang pag-uuspan. Dagdag Bayarin na siyang pinakaayaw ng mga Magulang sa hirap ng Buhay sa ngayon. Haha. Ayos ang istorya. Kahit pambata ang kwento'y tagos naman sa mga budhi ng mga magulang na naroon.
K+12 pa naman sila ngayon. Dagdag pasanin talaga pero sa sipag at tiyaga'y naniniwala akong kayang-kaya.

Kakapagod. Napakainit, Ngunit sulit naman sa mga munting aral ang Araw na 'to. Natutunan kong mas pahalagahan pa ang biyaya ng Edukasyon, na ito'y napakahalaga at ito'y hindi basta na lamang nariyan at kukunin...kundi ito'y pinagsisikapang matamo. Ang edukasyon, gaano man kailap ay kailangang maangkin ng isang tao. Susi nga sa tagumpay. Daan sa mas maliwanag na kinabukasan. Tulay sa Pagbabago.

Sabi nga sa Tema ng mga Pagtatapos ngayong taon," ALAY na KAALAMAN, GAMIT NAMIN SA PAG-UNLAD BAYAN"... Ang gagaling talaga nitong mga taga-DepEd. Malamim pa sa balon ang pakahulugan ng paksa. Naintindihan naman kaya ng mga Graduates na LEBAKENIO?

Hahaha...Nakakatuwang isipin na unti-unting nagiging mas maliwanag ang bukas ng bayan. Ngayong taon, ilang daan mga mag-aaral at estudyante na naman ang nagsipagtapos kapwa sa Elementarya, Sekondarya at Kolehiyo. Panalangin ko lang ay SANA'Y mapakinabangan ng ating bayan ang mga ANAK nito.
 Tulad ko sana ang pag-iisip ng mga kapwa kong Kabataan ng Lebak, na handang iaalay ang angking talino's kasanayan sa ikauunlad ng ating bayan. Napapangiti ako sa tuwing maiisip ko ang malaking posibilidad na maaring marating ng Lebak sa panahon ko at ng aking mga kasabayang henerasyon. 

Patuloy tayo sa pagtahak sa landas ng karunungan sa gabay ng ating mga magulang at pagmamahal ng Poong Maykapal dala-dala ang maningning nating pangarap para sa Bayang tayo ang pag-asa. Kailangan ka ng bayan mo...